19th Birthday

by Isti S. - 12:34 AM

So, it's 1:11 am in Malaysia as I am starting to write this. Actually, I was about to post like an hour ago. I'm blogging at the lobby then some of my friends came to me lifted me up and threw me in the pool and they just ran away. So, I needed to come back to my room and get shower again.

Well, it's already May 8th here in Malaysia. May 8th is my birthday. Not yet actually because I was born on 11 am Western Indonesian Time (GMT +7) but still, it's already May 8th now.

In my 19 years of existence, being 18 was really complicated. So many things happened. Worrying about your future. Is it right for me? Why did I choose this major in uni? What will I be after I graduate from uni? What if I can't find a job?

But now I learn that sometimes we just need to let it flow. Regretting won't change anything. You can decide your happiness on your own. If you keep on regretting things and blaming yourself and hesitating the life you chose, how can you be happy?

I'm trying to be positive because the one who creates my own happiness is myself---and some external factors actually.

And, this is the first birthday that I don't celebrate with my family and my friends :(

But, it's okay. It's a new experience.

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